I would put this under a see more but im on my phone so I cant. Sorry in advance .. .
I feel trapped. I feel like I cant do what I want to do and even if I could I dont even know what to do. I graduated high school last june.
I was certain that I wanted to go to my local community college then transfer to the local private college aftee to study nutrition. I took general chemistry 1 last semester and it was so nervewrecking with the math anf I hated it but I kind of got over it. But other than that it was pretty easy. I got the highest grades in my sociology and psych Classes and it gave me the confidence to continue.
This semester I am taking 2 sciences. Anatomy and Gen Bio 1 . anatomy is so hard and its all memorization which I like but I cant retain any information and I have a c. Actually I have a c in like all of my Classes except english
I dont want to do this anymore. I want to go to the state college closeby not pay for the private college bc quite frankly ive lost the love for that school. I dont even know what to study. I thought maybe go for psychology but not sure about how easy it will be to get a job. Plus my boyfriends mom basically said I dont want to do it. M Im stresed out, on edge, eating like crazy from stress and I just hate this so much.
I dont know what to do. Im sick of feeling so stupid and I dont like quitting and I just feel so done and it would be easier to not live at all. But ik I cant take that option. I just . . Dont know what to do. Im trapped.
I don’t know where I am. It’s like I’m breaking into a million pieces and there’s only one thing I remember. I have to save the Doctor. He always looks different but I always know it’s him. Sometimes I think I’m everywhere at once, running every second just to find him. Just so save him. But he never hears me. Almost never. I blew into this world on a leaf. I’m still blowing. I don’t think I’ll ever land. I’m Clara Oswald. I’m the Impossible Girl. I was born to save the Doctor.
I don’t know where I am. I just know I’m running. Sometimes it’s like I’ve lived a thousand lives in a thousand places. I’m born, I live, I die, and always, there’s the Doctor. Always, I’m running to save the Doctor, again and again and again. And he hardly ever hears me but I’ve always been there. Right from the very beginning. Right from the day he started running.
I don’t know where I am. I don’t know where I’m going or where I’ve been. I was born to save the Doctor but the Doctor is safe now. I’m the Impossible Girl and my story is done.
The first person to discover static electricity must have been shocked